work harder...
I need to work harder
I need to work harder.
I try to sleep.
"I need to work harder". This thought accosts me in the dead of night.
One of my classmates hasn't even started studying yet, and yet I feel behind.
I don't feel like I'm doing enough. The thought gnaws at me. You're a failure, you failed your A-Levels, and you'll fail this too.
Why didn't you just take the SSRI's, maybe you would have gotten a bit better, maybe you could have done better.
Why are you procrastinating. Go to the fucking gym, it's not scary you stupid motherfucker.
Work harder, be better.
I need to stick to the schedule. I was supposed to make anki cards today, but I didn't.
It always fucking starts with, I'll do it tomorrow. But when something's really important you don't fucking do it tomorrow.
But when something should be important to you, you don't?
What's wrong with you?