watching people die
I'm suicidal.
I've thought about killing myself at school, but it'd traumatise my classmates, I'm not too sure about the height and I'd have to break a window.(I aint paying for that if I chicken out).
I've decided not to jump to my death. There are other ways to die.
I decided to see what my death could've looked like.
I learned that when people fall from a very high height that they bounce and that they might crush someone. More reasons not to jump to my death.
Weirdly enough, I didn't feel anything I think you're supposed to feel when watching others die.
I mostly felt anger, anger that people have to resort to such violent methods just to leave this cruel existence.
I wish that I could show videos like these to people like Bryan Caplan, and have him tell me that "there are so many cheap and easy ways to stop existing" or that "life is a good with free (or nearly free) disposal".
So much pointless violence and suffering and trauma because people feel a need to continually restrict more and more peaceful methods of killing oneself.
I ask you, for what?
If you feel like answering, here's my email: anipanda@tutamail.com